Enough already!

Ok, so Sarah made me this kick-ass blog, and then I don't even post on it! What an ingrate!
I suppose I haven't really posted because there's not much to say. I have to admit I've been getting more and more depressed lately thanks to the lack-o-job syndrome. It's one thing to be able to blame the economy and know that I'm not the only one having a hard time, but the fact that I spent so much time in school and can barely pay my bills just makes me feel like a complete failure.
Jon has been amazing. He knows what's going on without me even having to say it. But at the same time, sometimes it makes me feel worse because I don't want him to worry, so I feel pressured to feel "happy" immediately. I know that's not how he thinks, it's just my own stupid brain.
I know I should be thankful right now that I'm at least working a temp job so I'll have some money coming in. But I'm also thankful it's temporary, because I don't think I could stand doing what I'm doing for a living.
Maybe a good trip to the zoo with my friend Henry will make everything better.